Feels like a long winter
Posted: Sat Jan 08, 2011 9:42 pm
Sometimes i hate it when im right and i predicted last november that it will get awfully lonely here once tourist season sets in motion and damn me if I wasn't right.
It's not that It's few people here, it's more people in movement here in January - May than the rest of the year and Im greatfull for my job even if it's not the most thankfully job you can have, albeit one of the most beautiful.
The problem i foresaw have been around since first grade and it's that im always feel a bit left out.
I've always been a strong person and a social person that have never done something that i didn't wanted to do (school and work aside) if someone told me to and that left me with some people having problems with my "attitude".
Take that and my, in this settings different interests: Games, playing music, computer stuff, filming stuff etc have made me a bit distant to the local social group.
Not everyone i want to ad I have some people that i speak to
This don't include all the people around here but as soon i want to get down to the local pub i often end up in the far end at the table drinking my beverages and trying to start conversations with people.
It's not that people don't answer or don't want to continue the discussion but I noticed last time I was out that I can probably count the times someone have started a conversation with me instead on the other way around on one hand and I'm relatively sure that that hand have fingers left before I have to use the other hand.
As stated before I'm a very social guy and I don't think Im that intimidating, (hat and Stash aside) nor strange enough that people would try to avoid me but i think lot's of the foundation for this current state can be backtracked to my school year as many people there is old schoolmates and classmates from before.
And going to a school with 47 students (class 1-6 in 7-9 we went to another school) at most is a easy way to get to know everybody fairly well and making it easy for people to tell other people who you are (this applied much in class 7-9)
The lack of common ground and alienation to begin with along with me being "out of town studying" for 3 years have made it very hard to start the "networking" again and it feels sometimes that I'm just there.
And the lack of like-minded people such as geeks, gamers or really creative/mad people have really made that i don't have anyone else to speak to, sure some are interested in music but in a awful favour to Listening instead of playing and writing.
Before i went AWOL 3 years i was kind of used to only be acquainted with a very small group of people on a regular basis, but after being around and actually made a large group of friends it just takes time to get adjusted again to not having much people to speak to.
It can feel like one of the smallest things in the world but having someone just sit down and take a few seconds and ask how you are doing and what you been up to since last time would really cheer me up.
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So a little self analysis now and again is good for the character and not all is bad, my blues licks are better than ever thanks to this.
But yeah some advice or something would really be appreciated as i don't really can come up with anything that would not put me in compromising positions.
It's not that It's few people here, it's more people in movement here in January - May than the rest of the year and Im greatfull for my job even if it's not the most thankfully job you can have, albeit one of the most beautiful.
The problem i foresaw have been around since first grade and it's that im always feel a bit left out.
I've always been a strong person and a social person that have never done something that i didn't wanted to do (school and work aside) if someone told me to and that left me with some people having problems with my "attitude".
Take that and my, in this settings different interests: Games, playing music, computer stuff, filming stuff etc have made me a bit distant to the local social group.
Not everyone i want to ad I have some people that i speak to
This don't include all the people around here but as soon i want to get down to the local pub i often end up in the far end at the table drinking my beverages and trying to start conversations with people.
It's not that people don't answer or don't want to continue the discussion but I noticed last time I was out that I can probably count the times someone have started a conversation with me instead on the other way around on one hand and I'm relatively sure that that hand have fingers left before I have to use the other hand.
As stated before I'm a very social guy and I don't think Im that intimidating, (hat and Stash aside) nor strange enough that people would try to avoid me but i think lot's of the foundation for this current state can be backtracked to my school year as many people there is old schoolmates and classmates from before.
And going to a school with 47 students (class 1-6 in 7-9 we went to another school) at most is a easy way to get to know everybody fairly well and making it easy for people to tell other people who you are (this applied much in class 7-9)
The lack of common ground and alienation to begin with along with me being "out of town studying" for 3 years have made it very hard to start the "networking" again and it feels sometimes that I'm just there.
And the lack of like-minded people such as geeks, gamers or really creative/mad people have really made that i don't have anyone else to speak to, sure some are interested in music but in a awful favour to Listening instead of playing and writing.
Before i went AWOL 3 years i was kind of used to only be acquainted with a very small group of people on a regular basis, but after being around and actually made a large group of friends it just takes time to get adjusted again to not having much people to speak to.
It can feel like one of the smallest things in the world but having someone just sit down and take a few seconds and ask how you are doing and what you been up to since last time would really cheer me up.
------
So a little self analysis now and again is good for the character and not all is bad, my blues licks are better than ever thanks to this.
But yeah some advice or something would really be appreciated as i don't really can come up with anything that would not put me in compromising positions.