^I did this.
Forgive me for not thinking my words through in a rant that I was pissed about and wrote in like five seconds.
Also, SD, I wasn't necessarily trying to help, as I said, I was mad. I just posted that randomly. The first part I didn't even post and the second I know they didn't end up seeing.
I got alot of sh** going on and I get mad easily lately.
I got especially mad when the guy essentially made it seem like he was the only one who could ever be depressed in t3h wurld and I'd think that's understandable considering my recent struggles with my own d**n depression/suicidal thoughts (not including my other sh** I wont go into) and fear of becoming my d**n uncle/father. [strike]so f*** off.[/strike]So please try to understand my anger and how I couldn't have thought about this.
This is what happened.
1) "No I'm not moving. You can't make me, I'm staying right here in your coments. You can hold a gun to my head. I'm not leaving... Unless you delete this message... Crap."
2) "I don't care if you accept me or not! You can hold a gun to my head I'm not- Oh wait...""I did this already"
3) "Nope. Just a regular jerk who likes to make people laugh. Sorry to disappoint. ;p"
4) (posted at the same moment as their post so I didn't see it) "I may merrily jest however might miss [M.M.] ask that I stop I would. Otherwise...." (or something fairly close to that.)
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I then proceeded to send two (non angry and as contained as can be) messages to my friend (I tried to hurry to get it there before they blocked me) that essentially asked them to apologize to their friend for me and myself apologizing to my friend. I also at that time deleted all of my comments.
They still deleted me from their friendslist. I hate it, I liked them, they were nice; however, if they're going to get so upset about something so stupid then I really shouldn't/don't care.
Like what I said, or hate it, I really don't give a care.
To be honest, I figured everyone here would just go "He's just venting anger and they didn't see it no harm done" or something and just leave the topic be.
Instead, what happens? People come in and curse me, insult me, and essentially try to argue with me.
I figured I could get this stuff out of my system here.
All it does however now, is make me angrier. I literally want to go massacre something/someone and/or self destruct right now. F***ing great thing this venting forum. WORKS LIKE A MOTHERF***ING CHARM!
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I'm sorry. I had a good day today, despite the fact that I had a bad night most of last night. I found out my friend is getting married. Another friend's bf is looking for rings. I found out another friend's band is flourishing. I find out two other friends got back together after a long separation. My mom is getting into contact with her family, which makes her happy. We saw a good movie this week. The weather is nice. We are all able to breathe, walk, see, hear, feel, etc, etc. and yet I find myself getting depressed... and it makes me feel worse when I realize I'm depressed and have no reason to be.
I'm worried that thing I had to get a surgery for a couple of years back has returned and if it has I could go into a coma at any time. I have no insurance right now to confirm this one way or the other. Everytime I think I belong here or somewhere else, I voice an opinion, not even necessarily a political one, just a random opinion and I feel shunned and am probably met with hostility... and we're talking about moving again. The last one isn't necessarily completely unwelcomed, but then it is essentially left up to where I/my sister decide to go to school. Which is another thing I have to worry about... And then we're low on money and end up scrounging... and we're paying a dumb amount of rent for a small trailer that is literally falling apart... I'm worried about stupid stuff like my appearance/fitness as well and I feel bad about worrying about such things... and then (dotdotdot) ...
Along with those, without thinking about it, I end up worrying about other people's problems as well, and feel it necessary to help, even if it may be unwanted. That's partly why I posted the joke. Not to be a jerk, but to try and cheer my friend up... It didn't work I suppose...
I don't like writing these topics. They make me feel like I'm complaining. I don't mean to. As I said, I have many good things going on as well. I just ask that you understand my anger/frustration over stupid things.
Anyway, sorry if I offended someone or something, I didn't mean to...
And I'm also sorry I took up your time. You can lock this topic now if it is a bother.
Now... I should probably go to bed, I have a big test tomorrow and have a fever to sleep off..
Again, I am genuinely sorry to anyone I may have offended, and I thank you for your time in reading this post.